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Dale’s Story: How My Battle With Weight Loss, Anxiety & Depression Led to Finding Love & Growing Food!

Check out below for Dale’s talk at the Organic Oklahoma Conference about how growing food changed our lives!

I’ve talked before about how my daughter’s birth inspired me to change my lifestyle and lose 120 pounds. This is the story about how I did it and why I developed a more sustainable approach to healthy living. I don’t know how I can tell the story of how I got here without sharing details of my life that I normally wouldn’t disclose so publicly. I only do so with the hope that my story helps someone else out.

Becoming a Father & Lighting the Spark

December, 2009

This all started for me back in the end of 2008. I was around 330 pounds when Brooklyn came into this world. Up until then, I battled constant health problems, anxiety attacks, and bouts of depression. If I continued down the unhealthy path I was on, I knew I wouldn’t be able to be the kind of dad I wanted to be – the kind of dad who is able to run with his kids, coach their sports teams, and be there for them when they’re older – so I decided I had to change. I started by targeting my worst vice: soda. I’ve had a problem with soda ever since I can remember. I drank between 2 and 3 liters of soda a day back then and I now know it was one of the leading reasons I got so large (340 pounds at my heaviest). I knew it had to be the first thing I cut out. It’s been 8 years since then, but I still remember this being the hardest part for me. It didn’t help matters that the office I worked in had a soda machine with free, unlimited access. Over the course of 2 months, I weaned off of my daily 3 liters to only drinking water with an occasional tea. I started by cutting back to just 2 sodas a day. Then once I got used to that, I cut back to 1 a day, then 1 every 2 days, and eventually I got to the point where I completely eliminated it.

Once I’d defeated my soda addiction, I felt like I could do anything. Soda had been a crutch for me for my entire life, and jumping that first hurdle gave me the confidence to tackle the next one: food. My typical diet in the past involved at least two fast food meals a day, every single day. Looking back now, it’s no wonder I had to have my gallbladder removed at the age of 24!

As I tend to do from time to time, I went a little overboard with this project, so I had spreadsheets galore. Back then, I viewed weight loss as a simple math problem: There are roughly 3,500 calories in a pound, and I wanted to lose 10 pounds a month. This meant I had to burn a little over 1,000 more calories than I ate each day. To accomplish this, I turned to data and spreadsheets. I purchased a Bodybugg device that I wore on my arm, and it monitored how many calories I burned. I then used one of the food-logging mobile apps to keep track of everything I ate throughout the day, and I religiously stuck to my calorie-burning goal.

Becoming a Fitness Junkie

December, 2009
August, 2011
April, 2012

Looking back, I now realize I made a couple of mistakes. First, I only cared about the calorie content of foods. I hadn’t yet discovered why the quality of the food matters. I thought that eating low-calorie meant that I was eating healthy, but I should’ve paid more attention to the source of the calories. Secondly, juggling all of the spreadsheets, meal logging, and data tracking made impossible to sustain. It became a pain to calculate every meal I ate so I started sticking to things that I could easily calculate calories for. As a result, I pretty much ate the same things every day. I had a bowl of cereal and a banana for breakfast every day, a turkey sandwich and an apple for lunch, and for dinner, I alternated between 5 or 6 meals that I’d calculated the calories for. I didn’t care much about where the food came from; I only cared about how many calories it contained. Although it worked and I lost weight, I eventually stopped keeping track of everything and fell back into old habits. I now know that this method was misguided, and I can expand on that later.

I mentioned above that I burned between 3500-4000 calories a day and that’s where the next part comes in. At the size I was back then, I generally burned 2500-3000 calories a day just doing normal daily activities. To burn the rest of it I started with something simple: taking 15-30 minute walks around the building at my office twice a day and walking at least 3 miles every night. I walked at a nearby park, and every single night, there was this old man – He had to have been at least 75! – who would always jog past me. I wish I could find him and thank him because getting passed by him every night motivated me to start running. I’d never purposely run for longer than a few minutes in my life and the idea of running even a mile seemed impossible. I discovered the Couch to 5k (C25K) running program and started with it. The C25K program teaches you how to run by introducing you slowly through walk/run intervals. You start by alternating walking/running every 90 seconds for 20 minutes. As the weeks go on, you’re running more and walking less until eventually, you’re just running. I still remember the first time I was able to run a mile without stopping. I felt like I’d just climbed Mt. Everest. By this point, it was the fall of 2009 and I’d lost over 60 pounds. That September I participated in my first 5k run and running began to consume my life. In 2010, I reached my low weight of 210, ran my first half marathon and followed up with countless more half-marathons and 2 full marathons in 2011 and 2012. I also got heavily involved in cycling and rode my bike thousands of miles over Oklahoma and Colorado. By the end of 2010, I was completely self-absorbed, obsessed with endurance training, and had lost sight of why I’d started all of this in the first place.

Crashing Into a Major Depression

I started this journey because I wanted to be a better father, but I was spending all of my time training for marathons and bicycle events, missing out on precious memories with my then 2 daughters (Daphney born in 2010). I’d let something that initially began as a good thing consume me and become a negative thing in my life. As I’ve since learned, the problem with searching for happiness through personal achievements is that they never quite satisfied me. I mean, just look at this picture I saw pop up on my Facebook memories the other day. This was taken immediately after completing my 2nd marathon. You’d think I would have been happy about it, but I couldn’t care less. Goals that were egocentric in nature could only sustain me for so long. This was also around the time that I was included on an episode of the Rachel Ray show featuring people from Oklahoma that had lost weight as part of the “Million Pound Challenge”, and I also received the largest promotion of my career. There’s a line from an Avett Brothers song that I feel perfectly describes me during his time: “I was lost as lost could be, being praised for being found. But all that praise got lost on me, as the mood swings headed down.” I’d let all the attention and weight loss success get to my head and I was about to be taught a lesson.

February, 2012 – Rachael Ray Show

By the middle of 2012, everything came crashing down. I was in the best shape of my life, but I spent a lot of time away from my family either working, running, or cycling and no matter how far I ran, the anxiety/depression was still there with me. I ended up going down a dark road. My dad passed away, I lost my marriage, lost half the time with my kids, and basically lost myself. I’d spent my entire career up to that point in the pursuit of money thinking I was doing the right thing for my kids. Now it all seemed rather pointless as I sat in my brand new house surrounded by all this “stuff” alone on the nights my kids were with their mom. There’s about a year and a half of my life where I just flat out wasn’t myself and frankly, I don’t remember much of. I was in the midst of a deep depression and had no clue I even had a problem. My health stopped being a priority and I slipped back into many of my old habits. I slowly started to gain the weight back, and before it was all said and done, I ended up gaining back 50 of the 120 I’d lost.

Then I met Carrie, and everything changed…

Finding Love & Fighting Back Against Depression

Carrie and I met the 4th day of 2013 and it was an instant connection unlike anything I’d ever experienced. I haven’t been the same since. I’ve never met anyone who makes me feel the way that she does. She’s the most compassionate and loving person I’ve ever known and her kindness and gentleness continually inspires me to be a better person. I’m thankful every day that I met her and I’d go through all the hells I’ve been through 100 times over to get to her again.

April, 2013

She’s also the first person in my life that helped me begin to understand that I had anxiety and depression. I realize now that I’ve always fought anxiety and depression, but I didn’t admit it to myself or anyone else until I met her. There was one specific night early in our relationship that changed my life. I’d been a jerk to her for no reason and tried to blame it on something else. The truth is I was in the midst of an anxiety attack and was lashing out as a response. This ended up being a seismic moment in my life that fundamentally altered the way I viewed the world. She quickly put me in my place and was the first person in my life that ever forced me to admit I had a problem. That realization/admission inspired me to fervently research anxiety, depression, and how it can be treated or prevented without medication. My first step was to read The Depression Cure. It talks about how anxiety and depression can be prevented or treated with simple things like getting more sunlight, drinking lots of water, eating the right foods, not dwelling on negative thoughts, getting enough social activity, and building consistent sleeping habits. They’re all very simple ideas, but I’ve found them to be incredibly powerful. It’s these principles that still guide me today. All of the things I learned in the book led me to believe the reason for my increasing anxiety was directly related to what I was eating and how I was living. I decided to take the lessons of the book to heart and to live as closely as I could to the recommended lifestyle for preventing anxiety and depression. I had, however, learned a lesson from my previous experience; I wanted to be healthy, but I wasn’t going to let the pursuit take over my life again.

Learning to Love & Growing Food for the First Time

December, 2013

Carrie and I had a magical 2013 that culminated in me asking her to marry me. On stage. Dressed as Superman (she REALLY likes Superman). In 2014 we were married and soon expecting our first child, Marianne. By then I had started to see some success in battling anxiety and depression by following the advice I’d learned in the book, but we quickly learned that eating locally grown organic fresh fruits and vegetables is expensive! We were also juicing a lot of fruits and veggies so our grocery bill was well over $100 a week in just juicing materials. I knew there had to be a better way and that’s what led us to start thinking about starting a garden. However, the house we lived in didn’t have a large enough yard so we knew we’d have to wait until we were able to move.

We bought our house in spring of 2015 and that’s basically when the story of our garden began. We wanted to save money and started our first two raised beds as an experiment to see if we could cut our costs. I knew starting out that gardening would help accomplish two of the lifestyle changes I wanted (getting more sunlight and eating better food), but I was pleasantly surprised to find that it actually contributed to success in other areas, as well. Being outside in the sun working in the garden makes me want to drink more water, and I also sleep much better now that I spend at least an hour in the garden every day.

We bought our house in spring of 2015 and that’s basically when the story of our garden began. We wanted to save money and started our first two raised beds as an experiment to see if we could cut our costs. I knew starting out that gardening would help accomplish two of the lifestyle changes I wanted (getting more sunlight and eating better food), but I was pleasantly surprised to find that it actually contributed to success in other areas, as well. Being outside in the sun working in the garden makes me want to drink more water, and I also sleep much better now that I spend at least an hour in the garden every day.



Tasting spinach raw out of the garden for the first time opened my eyes to a new world. It tasted unlike any salad green I’d ever had. And in that moment, I had a realization: with the added taste came the added nutritional benefits as well. This was the first time I personally experienced all the things I’d seen in movies like Food Inc. and read about in Michael Pollan books.

Every other thing we’ve grown since has had the same result. It tastes dramatically better than anything you can buy in the store. This brings me back to that colossal mistake I made the first time around: only paying attention to the calories, not the nutritional value. In the past, I only focused on how many calories food had and didn’t care about where it came from. What I’ve learned since is that the source of the calories makes a huge difference in how I feel, especially mentally. And honestly, I don’t even count calories anymore.